Real African

these words and lyrics are dedicated to a special person who should think thru what´s best for the future and try to forget the past,
thoe am mad at you and sometimes you are a hassle and me aint there at the level you are in and cant take this anymore with you, it doesnt mean that i will go away but it means that i need something else, not with the act but  try be real and be true to you self, not only to ur friends but truly to ur heart,  i aint gonna go, am gonna stay and at last, me got hopes 4 the future, not now, not tommorrow but i mean the future. if u dont know me then you will never understand what i mean with that sentence. 

Hey, yo I don't even know you and I hate you
See all I know is that my girlfriend used to date you
How would you feel if she held you down and raped you?
Tried and tried, but she never could escape you
She was in love and I'd ask her how? I mean why?
What kind of love from a nigga would black your eye?
What kind of love from a nigga every night make you cry?
What kind of love from a nigga make you wish he would die?
I mean shit he bought you things and gave you diamond rings
But them things wasn't worth none of the pain that he brings
And you stayed, what made you fall for him?
That nigga had the power to make you crawl for him
I thought you was a doctor be on call for him
Smacked you down cause he said you was too tall for him, huh?
That wasn't love, babygirl you was dreamin'
I could have killed you when you said your seed was growin' from his semen

Love is blind, and it will take over your mind
What you think is love, is truly not
You need to elevate and find


I don't even know you and I'd kill you myself
You played with her like a doll and put her back on the shelf
Wouldn't let her go to school and better herself
She had a baby by your ass and you ain't giving no help
Uh-huh big time hustler, snake motherfucker
One's born everyday and everyday she was your sucker
How could you beat the mother of your kids?
How could you tell her that you love her?
Don't give a fuck if she lives
She told me she would leave you, I admit it she did
But came back, made up a lie about you missing your kids
Sweet kisses, baby ain't even know she was your mistress
Had to deal with fist fights and phone calls from your bitches
Floss like you possess her, tellin' me to mind my business
Said that it was her life and stay the fuck out of it
I tried and said just for him I'll keep a ready clip

I don't even know you and I want you dead
Don't know the facts but I saw the blood pour from her head
See I laid down beside her in the hospital bed
And about two hours later, doctors said she was dead
Had the nerve to show up at her mother's house the next day
To come and pay your respects and help the family pray
Even knelt down on one knee and let a tear drop
And before you had a chance to get up
You heard my gun cock
Prayin' to me now, I ain't God but I'll pretend
I ain't start your life but nigga I'mma bring it to an end
And I did, clear shots and no regrets, never
Cops comin' lock me under the jail
Nigga whatever my bitch, fuck it my sister
You could never figure out even if I let you live
What our love was all about
I considered her my blood and it don't come no thicker

 

I try to be patience but soon my paitience will be over,
i try to give my self time but soon the time will be over,
sometimes i dont care cuz i dont give a daaam about it
but its me we talking about thats the thing that makes it more harder,
yha think am foolish but yha got no idea who you dealin with,
am might act like a fool dum person but, try and read my thaughts,
maybe its cuz am kind enough but soon my kindness will go away,
you will be asking your self what the hell happened to you lloyd but only me that knows,
i do care what you do sometimes i dont really  but your time will come and it wot be me that will struggle
its not easy not to stop thinkin to much but i cant help it,
i can talk about it, write about or think about it
i hate this big bad feelin i got into me, its something new that i never feel all the time, thats what scares me,
i dont know what to do about it but we shall see during time what happens
its much to say but am sorry most of it is too personal this time so i godda rest now,
anyway goodnight and sleep tight,
much luv